I'm still married, haven't won a horse race so I can afford my own place, so life continues.
Now that I'm on the slide with not that many years till I'll officially be old, I'm wondering what to do with the rest of my life.
Will I stay here? It's not great but it's familiar. Moving out would be a financial difficulty.
My marriage is not what I hope it to be, and the damage can't be undone. I think I understand now, why some couples who have been through hard times, come out the other side and something has changed.
I doubt I could ever be thrilled by a relationship ever again. That's pretty sad because I've missed a lot over many years. My wife has too, I know. It's not all about me, but my feelings are the ones I can write about.
Anyway, there we go. It's a little update. I'm worried about my eldest son at the moment. He also seems to suffer depression (untreated) and is suffering it with friends sometimes, but not family. I, we, want to help.
I read years ago, that where a family member suffers depression, it's common that other family members do too.
Seems pretty right.